31 December 2017
Sassy!
Sassy:
(adj.) lively, bold, and full of spirit; cheeky
The word sassy
popped into my head
the moment I saw this pose.
Frankly, I'm not sure I could be
considered sassy -- because I'm
more introverted than not.
Or maybe it's that most don't
get to know or see my sassy side.
I tend to keep a lot hidden!
Goodbye, 2017!
Hello New Year!
30 December 2017
Sunshine!
Sending you
a little bit
of sunshine
to brighten
your day!
A gorgeous 76 degrees today
in the Valley of the Sun
so I thought I'd share a bit with you!
As for me, I'm tired.
Work has been hellish
but plenty of overtime!
Which I don't want!
I'd rather have more "me" time!
As 2017 comes to a close,
I look forward to a bright new year!
25 December 2017
Merry Christmas!
24 December 2017
Don't Be!
23 December 2017
Peaceful
"I love the idea that everyone has a gift to give.
And I believe that the world is waiting for us to give it to them."
-Elle Luna
After a long stretch of work days,
ahhh, a day off feels so good!
It's been as quiet and peaceful
as it can get ... and that's how I like it!
If you're like me, you avoid all forms
of shopping! I do what I must, but
never any more than that!
Wishing you peace, my friend!
17 December 2017
Dear Santa
16 December 2017
Keep It Simple
“Not believe in Santa Claus!
You might as well not believe in fairies!”
― Francis Pharcellus Church
Children and Christmas, they go together
and when your children are grown and gone,
Christmas becomes different.
Not in a bad way,
just different.
Me, I try to find ways to bring a little of the
joy I found being a parent at Christmas time
to my grown kids. Today, I cooked up a huge
batch of spaghetti and took it over to my son's
family, along with a loaf of french bread,
some goooey cupcakes, and gifts.
I wrapped a box of dog treats for their dogs,
I gave my son his favorite jerky and beef stew lunches.
I gave my daughter in law a pair of wonderfully soft
socks, and cute lap blankets for the two teenagers.
(along with a box of Mike and Ike candy!)
I also fixed up a dish of Ghiradelli Peppermint Bark
(and added in some Smirnoff Peppermint Twist).
Simple gifts, wrapped simply,
designed to bring a smile to their faces!
Keeping Christmas simple ... that's me!
12 December 2017
Unbecoming
Maybe the journey
isn't so much about
becoming anything.
Maybe it's about
unbecoming everything
that isn't really you,
so you can be who
you were meant to be
in the first place.
10 December 2017
So What!

“So what if you have stretch marks.
So what if you have cellulite.
So what if you don’t have flawless skin.
So what if you don’t have a body
that other people deem to be perfect.
So what!
Don’t allow people to define YOUR beauty.
Hold your head up high
and know who YOU are!
DO NOT EVER allow anybody to make you feel
as if you’re NOT enough.
You ARE enough!
BELIEVE that.”
― Stephanie Lahart
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09 December 2017
Diamonds

Your diamonds
are not in
far distant mountains
or in yonder seas;
they are in
your own backyard,
if you but dig for them.
-Russell Conwell
An absolutely gorgeous day
here in the Valley of the Sun.
80 degrees and full of sunshine.
It would be a shame to mar it
with thoughts about anything else!
Happy Weekend, my friend!
07 December 2017
Throwback Thursday
From December, 2012
To be beautiful
means to be yourself.
You don't need to be
accepted by others.
You need to accept
yourself.
-Thich Nhat Hahn
Life has a way of keeping me
busier than I like!
We've finally hit cool weather
here in the Valley of the Sun.
We barely reach 70 degrees,
and with the winds kicking in
tonight's walk with Sadie was
quite a chilly one,about 55!
Well, chilly for us -- I wore a
long sleeved shirt AND a light jacket!!
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26 November 2017
Pick Me Up!

Sometimes the perfect
pick-me-up
is a phone call
from an old friend!
So thank you, friend,
for calling; I was shooting
as we talked! *grin*
A work update that's had me upset
has to do with the co-worker issue.
I took it above store level to HR,
and her advice? "Let the system
do it's job." My reply was that I've
tried to let that happen -- for SIX YEARS!
Sadly, because of how the "system" works,
by the end of March, the coaching(s) will
drop off and he'll be starting over fresh.
AGAIN.
I told her and my store management that
"I'm done". This seems to be a true sign
that I need to find a different location.
Of course, no one's doing much hiring during
the Holiday Season without major issues, so
I'll just have to bide my time until the new year.
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25 November 2017
Poetry in Motion
Morning twilight turnsto a lavender sky
as the sun rises.
In the sweep of my
headlights, I catch the
soft glow of
a black machine
sleek gloss black paint
with lots of shiny chrome.
My heart thunders
as I admire this sexy machine.
We approach a red light
and stop side by side.
I rolled my window down
and smiled.
With a quick glance

our eyes met and held -
until the light turns green.
And in timeless fashion
he drops the pedal to the metal
and races off as
I watch the taillight glow
of this sexy 67 GTO.
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23 November 2017
Giving Thanks
Happy Thanksgiving!
Here's hoping you had an
enjoyable day with family
and/or friends!
Those of us who work retail
get the short end of the stick
prepping for the rest of the world
who want to shop for their
Holiday gift giving!
But no matter, I still had a nice
plateful of turkey, mashed taters,
cornbread stuffing, green beans,
covered in gravy along with the
other normal side dishes.
Sans family.
But after 17 years, I guess you could
say this is the norm for me.
In the mean time, I happened to catch
the last rays of sunshine streaming in
my window, so I posed just for you!
21 November 2017
My Backyard
Me: I really want to travel!
My Credit Card: Like.... to the backyard??
I saw this and found it humorous
because lately it seems I spend most of my time
at home. In my yard.
And really I'm OK with that!
Travel with Sadie is difficult, at best.
As I grow older, I find that my circle of travel
is smaller. I don't see the need to be on the go
all the time. When I was younger, had children,
it seemed I was going somewhere.
Every single day!
So having the freedom to choose to stay home
can be a joyous thing!
What's in your backyard?
20 November 2017
Foolin' Around

Playing around with my new backdrop
and trying my hand at some motion
at the same time.
Sometimes ya just gotta fool around.
*grin*
19 November 2017
Sunday Mornin'
Starting this Sunday with a clean heart.
No doubt, no tears,
No worry, no fears.
Retail and Black Friday.
If you're involved in either parts of this,
you can attest that it's the equivalent of a
walk through hell.
Hours upon hours are spent prepping for
the madness, and lasts less than 24 hours.
So today, Sunday, is a very restful kind of day.
An early morning stroll through my backyard
checking on things newly planted to clear my
mind and put aside worries about work.
Early morning is my favorite time of day!
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15 November 2017
Sadie Smiles!

Side by side
comparisons
Personally,
I prefer B&W!
"Sadie ... let's go get the stroller!"

Lately, this has been how my afterwork
hours go. We have our veggies for dinner,
then it's off into the stroller she goes
where I spend at least 30 minutes
getting in a good long walk, pushing her,
just over 1.5 miles.
Just look how it makes her smile!
But it leaves little time for doing other "creative stuff" !!
It's Wednesday, and we made it over the hump!
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13 November 2017
Free to be Me!
Out of your vulnerabilities
will come your strengths.
-Sigmund Freud
I was reading about being vulnerable today.
And it's not a weakness, it's more a strength.
People who consider themselves vulnerable
are those who feel deeply, who show others
parts of themselves that they may not be
happy with. And I've always felt I'm that way
too. I allow myself to feel things, to share things,
to let a person get to know "the real me".
But in my reading, I've also come to the conclusion
that I've shut off that part of me out of habit
because of my work situation.
I know that I cannot be who I am, cannot share "me"
with those I work with. While it's not because of me,
it affects who I am. And I need to learn new ways
around that. Perhaps that's why this blog works for me,
where I am free to be me!
12 November 2017
Morning Routine
Rise up,
start fresh,
see the bright opportunity
in each day
Sometimes, it isn't easy to do that!
I was watching an old Frazier episode
where he describes his morning routine,
he has to shower and shave, have his coffee,
a high fiber muffin, a touch of yogurt and
an untouched newspaper to read.
If he doesn't have those things, his day is ruined!
And he's finally OK with that part of himself.
It got me thinking about my own morning routine.
I dress and get ready for work, then walk Sadie.
Neither Sadie nor I have a good day when we
skimp on our routine. It's like having this segment
of things to do, and when they're done, your mind
is fresh to begin thinking and going about your day.
What about you, my friend? Do you have one, too?
08 November 2017
My Own Skin
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07 November 2017
A Bit Blurry
Sometimes
blurry photos
are okay.
Sometimes life feels just a little bit blurry!
Things at work haven't improved
but my attitude toward it has....
sorta.
If higher ups don't give a damn,
neither do I!
Sadie and I have been busy
doing a lot of walking now that it's
finally cooled off in the evenings.
And when she tires, I toss her in
her stroller and just keep on walking.
Doing something always feels better
than doing nothing!
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04 November 2017
Just a Splurge!
Just a Splurge!
Every now and then
you come across something
you can't resist buying.
This week, it was a photographer's
adjustable backdrop by LimoStudio.
Not something I ever had in mind to
want - or need - but there it was and
yep, I bought it!
It's just a simple stand with a black
backdrop .... now it's just a matter of
figuring out what I can actually do with it!
Looking forward to some "experiments"
this week!
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So. Mad.
What does it take to make you mad?
(I let this post sit, debated deleting it, yet here it is...)
I don't get mad often, but there are days .....
and this has been one of those kind of weeks!
It dragged on and on - and my co-worker Elvis
made it that way. He has been doing the
same exact job for the last six years. I am his
supervisor. He was coached for pouring
gasoline from a power tool into a trash can.
He's been trying to argue his case against this
since March. When they finally told him
last week that they will not remove this coaching, he
has become very upset. And he has made me his newest
"target". Most times, I can shake off bad gossip, old tales,
but he takes it to a new level. He told one of the gals that
I supervise that three years ago I called her a b***h. He told
another of my peers that he is going to go 'over my head'
because he needs a better supervisor. Today he told another
guy that I was the reason this guy didn't become part of the
management program 4 years ago (I know this guy well, he didn't
want to be part of it!). So how do you stop a runaway gossip?
I've been taking the "Rise Above" approach for nearly
six years now, and am finding it harder each day
to be anything more than civil to this individual.
I know I need to just stand tall, and keep doing what needs to be done.
but I sure am getting tired of it all!
What would you try?
25 October 2017
Vacation's Over
Take chances, Make mistakes
Hello, my friend.
I'm back from my mini (working) vacation!
It's always nice to get away, even if it's so you
can work on your Mom's "honey do" list!
My son and I traveled to see her, and tackled her
list of trimming trees, painting a workbench,
running her around town on some errands,
we even got one step ahead and hung her
Christmas lights! Yes, a little early, but that's
better than her climbing on a ladder outdoors!
It's not always nice coming back to work ....
all I can say is "ugh" and move on. Do what I know
needs doing, and just not think about the rest.
I'm not a game player, so Elvis can ride back out
on the horse he rode in on, IMO. I'm sure another
confab with management is in my future.
I keep wondering if these are signs that I'm meant
to make a change, to move on, find something else.
Only time will tell.
In the meantime, it's good to be home!!
Thanks for stopping by :)
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18 October 2017
Battles
Night is the
wonderful opportunity
to take rest,
to forgive,
to smile,
to get ready
for all the battles
you have to fight tomorrow.
Here it is, evening time:
the sun sets earlier every day.
And I know there are battles
I will have to fight again tomorrow.
Work has become very unpleasant
on days when I have to work with
my associate who I refer to as Elvis.
Every Monday when I return after
a weekend off, there's no telling
what he's done to create another bad situation.
This week was no different.
Eight work hours never dragged on soooo long.
Thank goodness for a 4-day weekend coming up!
More when I return. Happy weekend, my friend!
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16 October 2017
Strongest Weakness

He was my strongest weakness
I surrendered heart and soul
Its gonna be a long, long time
'Til I regain control
I'm still a prisoner
Held captive by his memory
He was my strongest weakness
And I'm afraid he'll always be
October always seems to bring up
those long ... lost ... feelings .....
This quote is a chorus from a song
I heard on the radio and it reminded me
of those who have passed through my life.
As with every life situation, there is always
the good and the bad, happy times, sad times,
and those moments of disagreement where
you think you'll never find even ground.
But if you're like me, you have one
who's the strongest weakness,
the one who crosses your mind
in the darkest hours of night.
And even though it's been years,
you find yourself wishing ... again.
07 October 2017
Rise Above
Don't get mad. Don't get even.
Do better. Much better.
Rise above.
Become so engulfed
in your own success
that you forget
it ever happened.
I don't know who said that, but it's been my mantra.
I work with a person who is very ... toxic.
And as is the case when these types realize they
can't control you, they change tactics and try to
undermine you, your actions.
I am a supervisor; I was asked by management
to travel to another facility to do some training.
When the time arrived, I checked in with management,
and went on my way. When I returned, my manager
told me how this person approached her and stated that
I left the building without saying where I was going.
She said, "Yes. But she reports to management, not to you."
He sputtered about it, and she walked away.
When I returned, he said "You should have told me you
were leaving, it's the courteous thing to do."
I stood tall, bit my tongue, and just nodded silently.
On Monday of this same week, as I was going about my

job, he walked up and started spouting off about how
the AZ Cardinals beat the SF 49ers in football. I just
shrugged (I'm not watching NFL games this year).
Another co-worker said "Good morning, Lynne" and I
answered "Good morning" back to her.
And again he spouts off, talking to her as if I'm not
standing there at all and says "YOU got a good morning,
I don't even get a hello, this must be ignore Elvis week."
Again. Stand tall. Bite my tongue. Nod and walk off.
After 5 years of this type of behavior,
it's the only thing I can do to save my own sanity.
** Thank you, my friend, for sharing this toxic person message with me!
When I returned, he said "You should have told me you
were leaving, it's the courteous thing to do."
I stood tall, bit my tongue, and just nodded silently.
On Monday of this same week, as I was going about my

job, he walked up and started spouting off about how
the AZ Cardinals beat the SF 49ers in football. I just
shrugged (I'm not watching NFL games this year).
Another co-worker said "Good morning, Lynne" and I
answered "Good morning" back to her.
And again he spouts off, talking to her as if I'm not
standing there at all and says "YOU got a good morning,
I don't even get a hello, this must be ignore Elvis week."
Again. Stand tall. Bite my tongue. Nod and walk off.
After 5 years of this type of behavior,
it's the only thing I can do to save my own sanity.
** Thank you, my friend, for sharing this toxic person message with me!
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04 October 2017
Tuckered
Ohh. Emm. Gee. All tuckered out.
Hello, and yes, it's about time I got
something posted! It's been a really rough
two+ weeks. So many changes with my
work status. They changed my hours.
For 8 years, I've worked the 6-3pm shift.
They moved me to 7-4pm.
It's only an hour. But it's making a huge
change in my life! And I'm having a hard time
keeping up. Literally up! I'm ready for sleep by
7pm - I now force myself to stay awake until 8:30
so that I'm not awake at 4am, pacing floors. lol
~~~~~> It's hell getting old! <~~~~~
My toe/foot is healing nicely, but taking it's sweet time.
With the swelling down, I can get into a shoe without
much discomfort, and while I hobble just a bit if I've
been sitting down for a while, once I get moving,
I'm good to go!
Thanks for thinking of me and stopping by!
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19 September 2017
Love Chooses
Remember that you don't choose love;
love chooses you.
All you really can do is accept it for all its mystery
when it comes into your life.
-Kent Nerburn
Hello again, my friend!
It's been a busy week, a long stretch of non-stop work days
with a badly sprained pinky toe, causing a swollen foot and
broken blood vessels. But it's healing.
I chose this quote because it reminds me of a toast from "Frasier"
An obsession kicked in and I'm watching the series over yet again
And now I know why. It has to do with not wanting to get married
but doing it anyway; of hoping a Knight in White Armor would
rescue me and declare his love. (Only in fairy tales, right?)
It finally kicked in why I like the episodes where Niles
wants Daphne, and Daphne runs out on her own wedding.
I realize now that if I wanted something different, it was
up to me to find the nerve to choose.
I didn't. Daphne did.
And I applaud her.
And while it's somewhat of a (comedic) fairy tale .....
Love fuels the reason(s) to go after your dreams.
They won't come to you without your own efforts.
13 September 2017
... and one more.
There's something about light coming through a window
that makes me grab my camera and shoot.
Just a little more of me and my weird!
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11 September 2017
Me. Weird.
"Weird is my nature,
my way of being,
don't mess it up."
--Gaby Hinojosa
Just feeling a little .... off my game today.
An odd Monday - no work, and it's too hot to play.
I had my flu shot on Thursday, maybe I've been
feeling a little bit of that over the past few days.
Definitely weird.
Do you ever feel that way too?
I never know what to do with it.
So it hides, gets pushed behind "the norm"
until it goes away.
02 September 2017
Backyard Babe
Friday Motivation:
This is the year I will be
Stronger
Braver
Kinder &
Unstoppable
This year I will be fierce!
As I get older, weight loss as a goal just doesn't work.
My body says "nope" even when I say "ohhh yesss"
Image result for 8 lbsAnd it's a struggle. Every. Single. Day.
I decided two weeks ago to change my goal
to focus on being healthy and strong.
And to my surprise, I've lost 8 pounds!
It's still not easy. It never will be.
But I am strong, tough and resilient
and I can do this!
Hello, weekend. What are YOUR plans?
01 September 2017
Hello, September!
Hello, September
I've been waiting for you!
By the 15th, we are past the
"monsoon season" so the
humidity will go back to it's
usual 10-15%.
And the temps will grow cooler!
Today .... a high of 108, it's finally
cooled to 107 and I can walk barefoot
on the pavement ... but only for a
few moments!
Today was a wonderful Friday.
Done at work by 10am, I headed to
Planet Fitness. I jumped on the treadmill
and set it for 55 minutes, 3.0 mph, and
covered the display. I didn't get the urge to
peek for quite a while, and had discovered that
32 minutes had passed, and I was well on my way
to making my 3 mile mark. I had reached that
"exercise high" and felt I could keep going and going
so I bumped it up to 60 minutes, finished at 65, and 3.25 miles.
Whew! It felt so good!
Back in the day when I had a personal trainer he taught me
to always finish strong. To the beat of a Beach Boys tune,
I finished the last 3+ minutes in a slow jog. Six hours later
I still feel pretty good .... but I'm sure I'll feel the pains tomorrow!
Thanks for stopping by!
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25 August 2017
Dusk
The light fades, and the desert twilight winks briefly.
Just before bed, I take a moment,
a simple pause from the chaos of life
because there's more to life than the mere details.
It is here in this quiet hour where thoughts come,
where there is just a little bit of peace
and I can stop and be grateful for all that I have.
Thanks for stopping by!
23 August 2017
Stillness
We all have
within us
a center of stillness
surrounded by silence.
~ Dag Hammarskjold
Why is it that when these should be "the golden years",
that life should be slowing down to a manageable pace,
I feel busier than ever?
I know that back when I was raising kids, I was running
from one thing to another, just so things were ready for
the next hectic day.
And it still feels that way, to an extent.
Perhaps because I feel time pressing against me,
and the need to get all that I want said and done
out there.
Immersed in a family project, I find myself writing about
memories on a daily basis. Which is a good thing. But it
all takes time. Frankly, I thought it might spark some
lively bits of conversation among the kids - my own,
my nephews, etc. It hasn't. I don't think they've reached
the age where they have finally realized that who they are
has a lot to do with where they started, where they came from.
Maybe some day.
I was dashing around the house, and the light coming through
my back window was lovely .... so I snapped this quickie for you!
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20 August 2017
Six Years Already?
August 14, 2011. This was my first blog post.
And now, six years have gone by.
I'm not sure I even remember my original hope
for this blog. That hope shifted to something else
somewhere in 2014, I think.
And now, it's just become a place for me to
exercise my photo skills, if you will.
I no longer think I'll find "that certain someone".
I've been blasted with a few bad comments,
a few choice words, I've blasted a few of my own
right back at them. And that's not me. I don't
enjoy it, and refuse to be engaged in silly
discussions about my choice of photography.
It's not porn, it's art. It's not meant to offend or entice.
If you don't like it, or it bores you, then move along.
Plenty of other things to see on the 'net.
I'm chuckling to myself ... the backyard was so bare
back then!
Shine
“Do what makes your soul shine.”
Hello, Friend! I've been away from this
for a little while as I've immersed myself
in some genealogy research projects.
Yes, plural!
I created a place to post photos of when me
and my siblings grew up, where I can put comments
and descriptions about what was going on, who was
in the photo (and sometimes why!) and just general
comments about the house we grew up in. Because
my mom is STILL in that house they bought in 1966.
Many things have changed, and it's fun to watch the
changes through the photos that my dad took.
I'm also researching old family history and putting names
and dates to the old photos I got from my grandmother's
things back in 1995. She had a lot of old photos, some
of folks I didn't know. But with a good family tree I can
usually narrow it down to one or two people .... :)
It's a great project for an overheated summer when I can't
get outdoors with Sadie. Hurry up, Fall! I'm ready!!
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12 August 2017
Old School
Yes, I stole this piece of "advice" from
somewhere on the 'net. Shame on me!
But it's good advice. And every so often,
I need a reminder.
Pardon the look of this photo. I have spent
the last two weeks immersed in family history.
So much has been digitized lately!
It's so exciting to find and share tidbits ---
my great grandfather ordered his farmhouse
from the Sears & Roebuck catalog!
Feeling my age, and looking at photos from .....
goodness!! Some of them are 100 years old now!
Yowza!
Have a wonderful week, my friend!
09 August 2017
Some Days
Some days, she has no idea how she'll do it
But every single day it still gets done
Some days, life seems like more struggle
than it should be. At my age, shouldn't
these be "golden years"??
Ahh well. I'm busy and I just keep on going
Some days I come home feeling like I was
the Energizer Bunny, running without stopping.
I tell myself "this too shall pass" ...
Hello, friend, and thanks for checking on me!
31 July 2017
Just Boots
No I can't outrun these roots,
Even if I wanted to
'Cause they run too strong, run too deep
Cutting right through the heart of me
No it don't matter where I plant these boots
Sometimes, the roots of your raising
are so deep, you just can't outrun them
no matter where you are.
I'm that way.
I transplanted myself from California
to Ohio
because I thought I needed to be
closer to my roots.
Even here in Arizona,
I am still a country gal at heart!
And I wouldn't change a thing.
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boots,
country,
cowgirl,
full figure,
mature,
reflection
30 July 2017
Boots!
Blame it all on my roots....
I showed up in boots.....
Forget Glass Slippers
This princess
wears boots!
You can kick anything
with the right boots!
A woman
can never own
too many boots!

I don't want a
knight in shining armor
just a man in boots and plaid!
Just havin' a little bit of fun
with my boots.
It was a rough week!
thank goodness the weekend was
a whole lot better.
Of course, when you start your
weekend leaving work early
on a Friday .... how bad can it get?
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