Just the Blur

Sometimes life itself is in focus

while we are just the blur.

Other times, life is like a blur

and our only focus is our self.

~~Gal

I feel as if I'm in some kind of transition.

I've been reading a lot;  I look for answers,

for helps, reading about others who are also

Empaths.   I came to a realization today.

One of the gals at work said "You should

smile more, you look so sad."  Well, at my age,

I've "earned" my face!   But after lots of thought,

I realized that I don't smile or ask inane things like

"Hi!  How's it going?" to people who pass me by

at work because I'm that person who, if I ask them,

they will begin to tell me things about what's going

in their lives.  And to be perfectly honest, it's not

something I need to hear.  The negative energy a

person puts out when telling things (read: complaining)

projects itself on to me, and I'm left feeling as if I've 

been through a battle.  It's not that I've lost my compassion

for folks dealing with troubled times, but I've not yet 

found my own protective "bubble" if you will that keeps

their energy from me.   Life is a process of learning and 

dealing, and this is my current battle.   

At times, I feel as if life is in focus and I'm just the blur.